Title: cado in nusquam (lapsus ex venia) (Part One, cado in nusquam
, Part two, haud sileo pro scelestus
, Part Three, angelus in meus umerus humerus
Pairing/Characters: Sam, Dean, Bobby, John (sort of)
Rating: A very serious NC-17
Word Count: 3650
Summary: Dean died and went to hell, while Sam was left to carry on without his brother. Sam now attempts to adjust to having his brother back, and what that means, and what Dean isn't telling him, all while hiding a few secrets of his own. This switches the story to Sam's POV, and is a rough re-write of episode two, "Are you There God, It's Me Dean Winchester"
Warnings: This is maybe the darkest thing I've ever written, and those of you who have read my work know I don't say these things lightly. This at the very least rivals the "P!Verse"...in some ways it goes darker places than that. There is rape/non-con, dub-con, there is torture, both physical and mental. This part of this fic does not contain any real comfort.
A/Ns: This began as a comment fic prompt that simply wouldn't leave me alone. Then I was surrounded by dirty, filthy enablers (I'm eyeing varkelton
specifically here). I haven't seen fandom really address the issue of John and his year in hell in light of Dean's revelation that 4 months was like 40 years...and if Dean broke in 30 years, how much longer could John have held out? In my mind for this, John escapes hell in "All Hell Breaks Loose" but isn't necessarily the John we remember...and what happens after he kills his enemy is murky at best...what if he was just far enough gone that he never could come back? I've been told my Latin grammar sucks. I realize this. I'm mostly using an online translator to get something aproximating what I want it to be.
Art provided by fallen_for_lost
.( lapsus ex venia (sliding from grace) )