Floundering Around in the Dark

Sometimes the best presents in the words aren't of the physical variety.

If you want to give me something, please consider:

I could use a new journal layout, new headers, new icons...
I love stories that are written for me...in particular lately I seem to be in a mood for priest!kink, Jeffrey Dean Morgan in any way, shape or form (including characters he's played), good three-way or orgy porn, and fight sex.
If you're in a giving mood, consider making a loan at Kiva.org (you can also give kiva cards) or purchasing a gift of hope at Heifer International.


In years past I've done a variety of things for Christmas, including attempting to write an insane number of stories in a short period of time, and writing stories for people to give other people.

( Let's talk about stories )

Fandom: Supernatural
Title: Any Kind of Hero
Characters/Pairing: Dean, Sam
Word Count: 970
Rating: R-ish…one sided UST

Summary: Sam’s always looked at Dean with a certain kind of hero worship, Dean doesn’t think he deserves it. For plutogirl10 who asked for: Dean/Sam, from Dean's POV, angsty, where they're not actually together, but Dean is all 'I'm such a bad big-brother for wanting this'. You know; a small piece of Dean-inner-turmoil.

A/Ns & Warnings: Masturbation, one sided lusty wincest. Happy holidays to my Porn Buddy! Hope you like it!

( For god’s sake, Sam, put some clothes on. )

Fandom: Buffy, the Vampire Slayer
Title: Tradition
Characters/Pairings: Buffy/Spike
Rating: R-sh
Word Count: 727

Summary: It’s Christmas, 2020. Buffy and Spike share a tradition of their own. For buffymonmon who asked for: BTVS Buffy, Spike, Angst, NC-17, Tradition, Buffy and Spike celebrating Christmas in the year 2020

A/Ns and Warnings: Het, but the NC-17 didn’t happen, sorry. This seemed to want to be all about the angst and not so much about the sex. Hope it is something like you wanted!

Happy Holidays!

( It would never be the same.  )

Fandom: Supernatural
Title: Anything
Characters/Pairings: Sam/Dean
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 4559

Summary: Sam finds Dean, and buys him back from a man who specializes in selling slaves. For nanakomatsu who asked for: Supernatural, Sam/Dean, with bottom!Dean and BDSM; NC-17; angst, but with an happy ending and the boys together please ;) For the prompt, I don't know, bruise or promise. If I can say more, I have a kink for slave!Dean (like real slave in an AU) or rentboy!Dean.

A/Ns and Warnings: Um…nothing overly graphic here, but the implication of torture and rape, conditioning. I hope this tickles you, my dear…and Happy Holidays. I actually don't think this one is done...but if I kept writing until it was, I could be another week in the doing...so maybe a second part will come later.

( Sam stopped breathing. Even with the head bowed, he knew. )

Fandom: Stargate SG-1/Buffyverse
Title: It Happens Sometimes
Characters/Pairing: Samantha Carter/Willow Rosenburg
Word Count: 1533
Rating: PG-13

Summary: A chance meeting in a crowded mall at Christmas, a flirtatious Willow, a little magic and some kissing over mochas. For siliconshaman who wanted: request SG-1/buffyverse, Sam/Willow femme/slash NC-17 Naughty/Elves... I couldn’t take it all the way to NC-17, Simon, sorry…it just wasn’t going there.

( Give her a military base anywhere in the world or an alien planet and she was comfortable. Hand her a weapon, or a puzzling alien technology, she knew how to handle herself. )

( Keeper!Verse Fans )

( Kink!Athon Participants )

YAY for fic!

Fandom: Stargate SG-1
Title: Kinks
Characters/Pairings: Teal’c/Daniel
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 2226

Summary: Daniel’s tense, Teal’c has a solution. For eboniorchid who wanted: Stargate SG-1, Daniel/Teal'c, Slash, NC-17, Presence, "Jack's being an ass, so Daniel finds what he needs in warrior-lover #2 (Teal'c)."

A/Ns: Happy Holidays, my dear. I hope this is close to what you were looking for. I've never written this pairing before. As for Warnings...Um...check the pairing...gay sex is involved.

( You are very tense, Daniel Jackson. I may cause you pain. )

Fandom: Supernatural/Buffyverse
Title: To Winning
Characters/Pairings: Dean/Sam/Spike
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 3694

Summary: Sam and Dean happen across Spike in a bar…and stuff happens. For deliciouspear who wanted: Fandom(s): ANGEL/SPN; Character(s): Spike & Dean; Category: Wangst; Rating: Any, but I am a pervert; Prompt: Bruises; Spike & Dean "compete" with each other to impress Sam.

A/Ns and Warnings: I’m not sure this is what you had in mind…but…um…it’s what happened when I sat down to write for you. I hope you enjoy it. Happy Holidays, my dear!

( To winning…and getting what we want. )

Fandom: Buffyverse
Title: Civilized Adults
Characters/Pairings: Angel/Buffy/Spike
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 1799

Summary: Post-Chosen and Never Fade Away, Spike and Angel show up in Rome looking to win back Buffy’s affections. For narissala who requested: Buffy, Spike, Angel; Slash [duh]; Rating: whatever; Words: Naughty & Nice. “Buffy's making a list, checking it twice, gonna find out if Spike & Angel are Naughty or Nice... or both.”

A/N & Warnings: Umm....let's see...there's some het, some slash...threesomes...vampires mixing with Slayer....all around good, clean...sex...yes.

( I just can’t make up my mind. Naughty…nice…We’ll just have to keep working at it…. )

Fandom: Supernatural
Title: The Ownership of Sam
Characters/Pairing: Sam/Dean
Word Count: 1921
Rating: NC-17

Summary: Sam’s got a choice to make if he wants to keep Dean. For taniapretender who wanted: SPN, Sam/Dean, bruise, No matter who the top is, I wanna strong D/s relationship, and I want spoken words ( told you words turn me on more than smell ), like the top telling the bottom what he's gonna do, etc...

A/N & Warnings: Um...bondage, masturbation...dom/sub and, of course, Wincest.

( There’s a thumb shaped bruise in the small of his back. )