![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cado in nusquam, Superntatural, NC-17
Jan. 3rd, 2009 02:50 pmFandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Alistair/John/Dean
Other Characters: Sam
Rating: A very serious NC-17
Word Count: 5076
Summary: Alistair is determined to break Dean, and he'll use any means at his disposal to do it, including a certain other Winchester who spent a few years on his rack too.
Warnings: This is maybe the darkest thing I've ever written, and those of you who have read my work know I don't say these things lightly. This at the very least rivals the "P!Verse"...in some ways it goes darker places than that. There is rape/non-con, dub-con, there is torture, both physical and mental. This part of this fic does not contain any real comfort.
A/Ns: This began as a comment fic prompt that simply wouldn't leave me alone. Then I was surrounded by dirty, filthy enablers (I'm eyeing![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
varkelton and denyce specifically here). I haven't seen fandom really address the issue of John and his year in hell in light of Dean's revelation that 4 months was like 40 years...and if Dean broke in 30 years, how much longer could John have held out? In my mind for this, John escapes hell in "All Hell Breaks Loose" but isn't necessarily the John we remember...and what happens after he kills his enemy is murky at best...what if he was just far enough gone that he never could come back?
( Normally I put a line of the fic here, but instead I leave you one final warning: Torture, seduction, blood, gore, mental torment, rape, father/son incest, demon rape...this is not pretty fic. Think before you click. )
I almost never put end notes on fic, but I feel that this requires a few other notes. 1) This is not the end of this piece. This is where I take a break from this piece. 2) The next piece might ultimately be even darker, as it will deal with the ten years Dean spends in hell as his father's apprentice. 3) The last piece might actually end up being multiple pieces as it is beginning to look as though I will be re-writing season 4 to date as this would have changed it...I won't go into details...hopefully, that is where we will get at least a little bit of comfort and such for the poor boy. Also, for those playing the home game, the title is Latin. It means "Falling into Nothing".
Pairing: Alistair/John/Dean
Other Characters: Sam
Rating: A very serious NC-17
Word Count: 5076
Summary: Alistair is determined to break Dean, and he'll use any means at his disposal to do it, including a certain other Winchester who spent a few years on his rack too.
Warnings: This is maybe the darkest thing I've ever written, and those of you who have read my work know I don't say these things lightly. This at the very least rivals the "P!Verse"...in some ways it goes darker places than that. There is rape/non-con, dub-con, there is torture, both physical and mental. This part of this fic does not contain any real comfort.
A/Ns: This began as a comment fic prompt that simply wouldn't leave me alone. Then I was surrounded by dirty, filthy enablers (I'm eyeing
varkelton and denyce specifically here). I haven't seen fandom really address the issue of John and his year in hell in light of Dean's revelation that 4 months was like 40 years...and if Dean broke in 30 years, how much longer could John have held out? In my mind for this, John escapes hell in "All Hell Breaks Loose" but isn't necessarily the John we remember...and what happens after he kills his enemy is murky at best...what if he was just far enough gone that he never could come back?( Normally I put a line of the fic here, but instead I leave you one final warning: Torture, seduction, blood, gore, mental torment, rape, father/son incest, demon rape...this is not pretty fic. Think before you click. )
I almost never put end notes on fic, but I feel that this requires a few other notes. 1) This is not the end of this piece. This is where I take a break from this piece. 2) The next piece might ultimately be even darker, as it will deal with the ten years Dean spends in hell as his father's apprentice. 3) The last piece might actually end up being multiple pieces as it is beginning to look as though I will be re-writing season 4 to date as this would have changed it...I won't go into details...hopefully, that is where we will get at least a little bit of comfort and such for the poor boy. Also, for those playing the home game, the title is Latin. It means "Falling into Nothing".
