Floundering Around in the Dark

I am attempting to sell some stuff to help get myself out of my current situation.

I have a Supernatural Season 1 trading card from the episode Faith signed by both Julie Benz and Jensen Ackles. It is currently listed on Ebay for $90 USD or Best Offer.

The more I get, the better it is for me, but I will not turn away any offer I deem worthwhile.




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Fic title: Reason Has No Relevance-Part Three(Index)
Author name: phantisma
Artist name: raggedy_edge
Genre: SPN Wincest
Pairing: Sam/Dean, Sam/Jess, Sam/OMC, Dean/OMC
Rating: NC-17
Word count: ~26,000
Warnings/Spoilers: Dub-Con first time Wincest, Dub-con between Sam and an OMC, dub-con/non-con Dean/OMC, brainwashing, het sex, group sex

Summary: Everyone knows Dean can't help himself when it comes to touching things he really shouldn't, and that one day it may get him into trouble. When he touches an African mating idol and throws it to Sam to keep from getting caught, they're both caught in a need for one another that neither of them expects or wants. Sam tries to outrun it, but his running only lands him inside a cult that preys on sex and sexual deviance. When Dean finally finds him, Sam sets his sights on bringing Dean inside with him.


( What I do Sam is help you realize that your body is sacred, that it is beautiful, that nothing it desires, nothing that makes it happy can ever be wrong, no matter what the world outside our doors may tell you. )

*2009 Big Bang written for spn_j2_bigbang*


Fic title: Reason Has No Relevance
Author name: phantisma
Artist name: raggedy_edge
Genre: SPN Wincest
Pairing: Sam/Dean, Sam/Jess, Sam/OMC, Dean/OMC
Rating: NC-17
Word count: ~26,000
Warnings/Spoilers: Dub-Con first time Wincest, Dub-con between Sam and an OMC, dub-con/non-con Dean/OMC, brainwashing, het sex, group sex

Summary: Everyone knows Dean can't help himself when it comes to touching things he really shouldn't, and that one day it may get him into trouble. When he touches an African mating idol and throws it to Sam to keep from getting caught, they're both caught in a need for one another that neither of them expects or wants. Sam tries to outrun it, but his running only lands him inside a cult that preys on sex and sexual deviance. When Dean finally finds him, Sam sets his sights on bringing Dean inside with him.

Acknowledgments: Many thanks to my primary beta, nighean_isis and my hand-holder, cheerleader and all around Push-to-get-it-done person varkelton. Also, to the bestest artist in the whole wide world, raggedy_edge who I adore!



Part One
Part Two
Part Three
Part Four
Part Five


Master Art Post: http://raggedy-edge.livejournal.com/58612.html

Fandom: Supernatural
Title: cado in nusquam (angelus in meus umerus humerus) (Part One, cado in nusquam, Part two, haud sileo pro scelestus
Pairing/Characters: Sam, Dean, Bobby, John/Dean
Rating: A very serious NC-17
Word Count: 4335
Summary: Dean got out of hell, but still isn't sure what is real and what isn't. This is largely a re-write of episode 4X01 "Lazurus Rising"...and what Dean's dealing with after the first two parts of this story.

Warnings: This is maybe the darkest thing I've ever written, and those of you who have read my work know I don't say these things lightly. This at the very least rivals the "P!Verse"...in some ways it goes darker places than that. There is rape/non-con, dub-con, there is torture, both physical and mental. This part of this fic does not contain any real comfort.

A/Ns: This began as a comment fic prompt that simply wouldn't leave me alone. Then I was surrounded by dirty, filthy enablers (I'm eyeing varkelton and denyce specifically here). I haven't seen fandom really address the issue of John and his year in hell in light of Dean's revelation that 4 months was like 40 years...and if Dean broke in 30 years, how much longer could John have held out? In my mind for this, John escapes hell in "All Hell Breaks Loose" but isn't necessarily the John we remember...and what happens after he kills his enemy is murky at best...what if he was just far enough gone that he never could come back?


Art provided by fallen_for_lost.



( angelus in meus umerus humerus (angel on my shoulder) )

Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Alistair/John/Dean
Other Characters: Sam
Rating: A very serious NC-17
Word Count: 5076
Summary: Alistair is determined to break Dean, and he'll use any means at his disposal to do it, including a certain other Winchester who spent a few years on his rack too.

Warnings: This is maybe the darkest thing I've ever written, and those of you who have read my work know I don't say these things lightly. This at the very least rivals the "P!Verse"...in some ways it goes darker places than that. There is rape/non-con, dub-con, there is torture, both physical and mental. This part of this fic does not contain any real comfort.

A/Ns: This began as a comment fic prompt that simply wouldn't leave me alone. Then I was surrounded by dirty, filthy enablers (I'm eyeing varkelton and denyce specifically here). I haven't seen fandom really address the issue of John and his year in hell in light of Dean's revelation that 4 months was like 40 years...and if Dean broke in 30 years, how much longer could John have held out? In my mind for this, John escapes hell in "All Hell Breaks Loose" but isn't necessarily the John we remember...and what happens after he kills his enemy is murky at best...what if he was just far enough gone that he never could come back?

( Normally I put a line of the fic here, but instead I leave you one final warning: Torture, seduction, blood, gore, mental torment, rape, father/son incest, demon rape...this is not pretty fic. Think before you click. )

I almost never put end notes on fic, but I feel that this requires a few other notes. 1) This is not the end of this piece. This is where I take a break from this piece. 2) The next piece might ultimately be even darker, as it will deal with the ten years Dean spends in hell as his father's apprentice. 3) The last piece might actually end up being multiple pieces as it is beginning to look as though I will be re-writing season 4 to date as this would have changed it...I won't go into details...hopefully, that is where we will get at least a little bit of comfort and such for the poor boy. Also, for those playing the home game, the title is Latin. It means "Falling into Nothing".

Fandom: Supernatural
Title: Scattered, Part Two --A sequel to Splintered and Shattered
Characters/Pairing: John/Dean, Dean/Sam, John/Sam, John/Dean/Sam, Dean/OMC, Sam/OMC
Rating: VERY NC-17
Word Count: 15, 456 (total)

Summary: The harder they try, the deeper the pieces cut on the way down. Dean isn't okay. John isn't okay. Sam is so far beyond not okay. Dean's splintered pieces are shattered and scattered and he can't seem to hold it all together.

A/Ns: This was difficult to write, but the story needed an ending. I didn't have anyone beta this for me. All mistakes and such are my own.

WARNINGS: Character Death. Violent sex, non-con/dub-con, depending on how you read the choices each character makes. This is incest. This is father/son and brother/brother incest. It is violent and ugly. It is also, in the end, about love and sacrifice and the lines that we blur when it's family.

( The first time it happens, you let yourself believe it won’t happen again. You need the money, the car needs parts, Sam needs jeans.  )

Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Alistair/John/Dean
Other Characters: Sam
Rating: A very serious NC-17
Summary: Alistair is determined to break Dean, and he'll use any means at his disposal to do it, including a certain other Winchester who spent a few years on his rack too.

Warnings: This is maybe the darkest thing I've ever written, and those of you who have read my work know I don't say these things lightly. This at the very least rivals the "P!Verse"...in some ways it goes darker places than that. There is rape/non-con, dub-con, there is torture, both physical and mental. This begins as a Dean in hell piece, and then follows very loosely through season 4.

cado en nusquam
haud sileo pro scelestus
angelus in meus umerus humerus
lapsus ex venia
fragilis innocentia
mactatu venia
Part One
Part Two
Part Three